January 20, 2015

Seeing without Seeing

Sitting at the dock looking across the water at the city. 

There is much to look at today:

The city skyline,
The Cascade Mountain Range,
Mount Rainier in all its Winter glory,
Cargo ships with full loads,
Gold and lace ribbon waves washing up on the shore,
Sunshine diamonds on the water,
Small coveys of birds swimming, diving,
The deep blue of the Puget Sound...deep calling to deep,


But I don't see what I want to see.

I want to see the end of this monstrous lawsuit.

I want to see where we will live...do we move?

I want to see what happens to the Santos Family unit this year.
A permanent 5 - 1 = 4 except when it equals 1?

I want to see how God will fix this and that and those other things.

But, more than anything, I want to see my Lord.

Where are you?
Are you hiding from me or have I lost my way?

I remember the story...

Mark chapter 10
Blind Bartimaeus

He heard Jesus was near so he shouted for Him.


But Bart wouldn't be hushed.

He cried out all the louder, all the more vehemently.



He did.

"What do you want me to do for you Bartimaeus?"

"I want to see, Lord."

Immediately, he received his sight.

Thank you, Lord.

I know you hear me, I know you see me,
and I know you see the end, the answers to all my wondering.

Thank you for the things that I DO see.
I walk by faith and not by sight.

I am so glad that I can trust you with all my "stuff."

While we look not at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen: for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.
2 Cor 4:18

January 7, 2015

A January Daybook


Wednesday January 7, 2015

Outside my window...

a cold, dim, grey, white, wet and bare day.

Oh for some color, some sunshine, SPRING!

I think I'll put together a colorful vignette at home--
perhaps a bowl of lemons and oranges,
some green-house grown daisies for the blue and white tea pot,
more candles lit.

I am thankful...

Seasons are just seasons, they are not eternal.

In the kitchen...

An Apple Cake.

Salmon, rice and broccoli for dinner.

We enjoyed grilled roast beef/sauerkraut sandwiches last night.

I am wearing...

A rose colored turtleneck sweater,
my favorite lace throw around my shoulders and
pearl earrings.

I am hearing...

This song play over and over in my head.
Sophia received their CD for Christmas and it is forever playing...

Are songs eternal?

I am going...

To be anxious for nothing...easier said than done!

No sooner have I given up my anxious thoughts, my pressing fears, to the able Lover of my Soul, then another anxiety presents itself.

On my mind...

I am just a sheep in need of a Shepherd.
What wolves would dare bite me with Him so near?

His rod and His staff, they comfort me.

I am reading...

2 Corinthians with delight
and lots of home school chapters.

I am hoping...

And praying for the Ladies Retreat I am putting together for early March.

I hope that lives are changed, that God is glorified, that it would be an event to remember...more than just a time out, but a big turn around for the women that attend.

I am remembering...

Naomi's biggest regret in 2014.

Our family reviewed the good, the bad and the ugly of last year.
We also talked about our dreams for this new year.

Surprisingly, her biggest regret made my heart light, and made us all laugh. It gave me hope and confidence that God really is taking care of my children through the struggles we face.

Her biggest regret?

She was at the movie theater with her Annie Mona.
Before the movie, she put a quarter in the gumball machine and out came, not one, but TWO gumballs as well as her quarter!! She happily gave the quarter back to Annie Mona.

Her biggest regret is not getting ten more gumballs with that broken machine and free quarter.

Around the house...

only the Christmas quilt still on the wall.

Everything else has been put away for the year.

A quote for today...

While we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal. 2 Cor. 4:18
One of my favorite things...

A long sleep.

I don't sleep well, do you?

When I do get a good sleep in, it is such a treasure.

A few plans for the rest of the month:


and then if I have time I will probably...


A picture thought to share...

The yummy days!!
I could eat them up...

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January 2, 2015

It starts with an R...

What was the last thing,


Who was the last person you wanted so badly it hurt?

The longing so intense, you cried, you prayed, you hoped.

Would you believe that God has that same longing for you? Hard to believe, huh? We believe God loves us. “For God so loved the world…,” but, do we really know how He loves us?

We forget that we are created by Him for Him. We forget that we are created in His image.

God sees, hears and hurts; He is jealous over the one He loves.

I was thinking the other day of the intensity of God’s love for me:

His eye is upon me,
He knows the number of hairs on my head,
He bottles my tears,
I am engraved on the palms of his hands,
He knows everything about me, my thoughts, my sin, my needs.
He never stops thinking of me, so much so that his thoughts toward me outnumber the sand on the seashore.

That's intense!

Do you identify?

Remember when you couldn't get him, (or it) off your mind? Perhaps it was your dying mother, the man who makes your heart leap, or the wayward son. Perhaps it is your cancer, a promotion, or the new house. Do you remember that season when it was all consuming?

One minute you are vacuuming, the next minute you are slouched over sighing deeply and loudly with an ache to have your longing satisfied.

That is a picture of His longing for YOU... for ME. Can you believe it?

"...with great mercies I will gather thee."

"...How often would I have gathered your children together as a hen gathers her brood under her wings,"

"...His banner over me is love."

It is amazing Love! Rejoice!

I feel like 2014 has been a preparation, a journey to this great wide ocean of 2015.

It sparkles with mystery and depth. What lies beneath its surface? What awaits me on the other side? Will I make it to the other side?...This 2015 ocean called "REDEEMED."

I know WHO I am: a daughter, friend, bride of the great I AM.

I know WHOSE I am: I am redeemed; I have been purchased and I no longer belong to myself.

But, I stand on the shore. The waves have crashed over my feet. I have walked in up to my ankles, even to my waist, but now, now is the time to set sail, to go out and discover, to live the adventure of REDEEMED.

2015, here I come!!

"For to me to live is Christ and to die is gain." 
Phil 1:21

"For it pleased the Father that in him should all fulness dwell;"
Col 1:19

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